After talking to a nurse and getting the usual "he's doing well, but there hasn't been much change" response, I asked if I could talk with him if she thinks his clarity is good enough. Oh yes, she responded. Gee, why couldn't they have just told me that in the first place.
So I spoke with dad this morning, at first wondering if he would know who he was talking to. Well YES he did. He had perfect clarity, no sign of delirium at all. He was my normal, intelligent, but very weary of all that he's gone through, dad.
Words can't describe how happy and relieved I feel right now. Tempered with sadness regarding that weariness and knowledge that it's still going to be weeks and weeks and weeks to recovery.
Considering that I've been wondering if I would ever hear my dad speak without delirium again, and contemplating what life would be like for him and for all of us from here out, this feels like a true miracle.
**update to that.
I just spoke with dad again and he is strongly delusional. He was telling me about three suspicious individuals that were in Alabama, getting on a plane. He wanted the number to the other airliner to report this incident. He said it has something to do with this Andy Griffith series and that the number is 1-234-567-8910 star pound. Then he said the nurses around there won't help him get ahold of the airliner and asked me if I would call them. I just agreed to do so, not knowing what else to say but wanting dad to know that I'm on his side and that he can count on me. Then he said ok, give me a call back nomatter how it turns out. I agreed, told him that I love him, he said that he loves me too, nomatter how this turns out. :(
Perhaps he just needs more time. Perhaps he truely is brain damaged now. I just need to try not to think about it for awhile.
Talked to mom finally. :) She is having a good mother's day, spent the night at my sister's place and is meeting her sisters for lunch tomorrow. She said that she experienced a similar thing with dad yesterday and thinks its a medication that they give him that is causing the delirium. She says that he was perfectly clear of mind yesterday morning but was delirious by midday. It made me feel better talking to mom and I was able to wish her happy mother's day too.
Breakfast - 3carb/261cal
[3carb][190cal ] pb
[xcarb][71cal ] an excellent egg
Lunch - 6carb/460cal
[3carb][190cal ] pb
[xcarb][170cal ] LC ice cream bar
[3carb][100cal ] very small amount of roast beef with a couple of bites of cauliflower
Dinner - xcarb/xcal
[xcarb][xcal ] nothing